Being stressed out

Okay...I'm not the only person that's stressed in this world...won't be the first and definitely not the last.

People had always said that managing people is the hardest role in the working environment.
I totally agree.
I am bothered by some people's attitude.
Seriously, I actually smiled while I was seething inside like mad.
God, that was a freaking hard thing to do.
Going to have lots of things to learn in my new role.
Managing people would be a priority for now...I just hope I don't end up nuttier than i am now.

Not sure how I'm going to juggle all these new things in the office and also in our personal lives.
When would everything finally settle down? Probably never.

How I wish I can change certain things that's happening...but many things are beyond my control. So let it be.
If it works out, good.
If it doesn't, walk away.

Would it be that easy? I hope so. I want to have that choice. The choice to just walk.

Changes

Lots of events are happening in our lives right now.
Double Tree by Hilton just opened and Eric is super buzy with work =(
I barely get to see him...and when I do, he looks more like a zombie (from lack of sleep).

My closest cousins are moving overseas...super sad about that.
It's good for them of course, but I'll miss them lots.
Melaine is working in Shanghai.
Melissa in Moscow.
And little Ann is going to the USA to study.

Just when I come back, everyone else moves away...
I wish them all the best...just remember to come home to visit.

Many of our closest and oldest friends are getting married in the next few months.
That's goin to burn a huge hole in our pocket.
Unavoidable I guess...just wish Chinese wedding dinners didn't cost so much...it's the guests that are going broke -_-

As for me...there're changes with me too.
Only a handful of people knows about it...well...the time will come =)

Nostalgic

I know...I know...i haven't been blogging much.
There is actually a very good reason for that which I'll reveal in time.

Anyways, I'm feeling super nostalgic today.
Not many of my friends know that I've just started with a new company.
I'm just slightly over 1 month old here.
You know how it is with a new company...new colleagues, new environment, new jobscope, new stress and what's not.
So far, people have been friendly but I've yet to make a real connection and have real buddies.
I'm still kinda sceptical of people...it'll take time I guess.

I was chatting with Regina online when I received an SMS from Lucinda.
Both these gals have been wonderful colleagues and friends since my days with Maersk.
And that's like 5 years back?
Oh my...time does flies.

And suddenly..I'm flooded with memories of those days in Maersk's office.
The group of friends we had..the crazy stuffs we used to do...the fun gossips sessions.
Yes..we worked like crazy chipmunks but we had loads of fun too.
No company is ever perfect, but I had the best colleagues there.
And I miss them all.
Many have moved on in their careers...some moved away...some just lost touch.
If they are all still there...I would've considered going back there.
But that's just life.
The only constant thing in life is change.
I just miss having people that 'clicks' with me.
Maybe I'm feeling what all newbies feel in a new environment...hopefully things gets better soon.

I know I can't turn back time.
But how I wish I could go back to those days in Maersk.