Jigsaw Puzzle : Theatre, Paris - Update 1

After working on it for a couple of days, this is how much I got done.
I've got the border and this is going to be a big piece when it's finished.
I just hope Uncle Hong have an idea how much it'll cost to be framed =P

Long way more to go I could put the last piece into the puzzle.
And I won't be making much progress over the next few weeks as my darling is coming home tonight *jumps around excitedly*

Since I'll be pretty busy attending a wedding, beach holiday, makan jaunts and spending lots of time with Eric, blog will be updated whenever possible.

Now...time to clean bedroom before Eric touchdown =P

Jigsaw Puzzle : Theatre, Paris

After such a long time...I finally got my hands on a jigsaw puzzle.
I love jigsaws but Mum banned me from buying anymore years ago until I can afford to buy a bigger house to hang them all up!
That was a bummer.

Over the years, I had been asking around if anyone needs help with their jigsaws.
But then I felt kinda silly doing that as people buy those puzzles because they wanted to spend time together solving it themselves.
It's really a great bonding activity for a couple...even family.
Provided no one loses a piece...which might just lead to a pretty ugly scene.
But me...I prefer to work on my jigsaws alone, all by myself.
I hate it when people try to help and mess up my system.
Yup...I have my own system of fixing it all up =)

So how did i get my hands on a 3000pcs puzzle to work my magic on?
Well...we were hanging out in Uncle Hong's house and the topic wandered to the jigsaw puzzle hanging in the living room.
He then revealed they have a new 3000pcs puzzle that is still in the box 'cause nobody have the time to fix it up.
My of my...I was bursting with excitement.
Finally....after so long...I can have my fingers playing with those small little pieces of cardboard.
I offered my services before Uncle Hong and Aunt Shireen had any time to blink...lol.
And quickly got the puzzle home so they can't change their mind =P

My current obsession...the 3000pcs jigsaw puzzle titled Theatre, Paris. It'll be so so beautiful when it's completed.

3000pcs is kinda daunting. I'm so itching to play with the little pieces of puzzle =)

I've already started on the puzzle.

I can't help it...I'm totally obsessed.

How I wish I don't need to sleep and could spend all my time on it.

I always have this crazy addiction to jigsaws...I can go without food just so I can find the next piece of the puzzle.

I'll update with pics once I have a small portion done...it's not going to be easy with 3000pcs.

I don't have much time as well...my baby is coming home in a couple of days.

Let's see how long it'll take me to get this done.

I finished a 2000pcs Snoopy jigsaw in 1 week years ago...so this will be a new record for me =D

Obviously, Mum is a kinda annoyed as my Blossoms cross stitch will be put on hold for a while till the puzzle is done.

The puzzle would be a nice break from all that stitching.

But I got a feeling I'm going to start knitting again soon...winter's coming =P

What can I say?

For such an impatient person, I'm addicted to things that requires tonnes of patience.

Talk about contradictions!

Charm Beading

Today was such a tiring day.
Was out almost the whole day and I'm drooping like a dead flower now.

But it was such a fun day out.
Mostly 'cause I made my own charm bracelet =)
I'm really into crafts so beading is just my cup of tea.
I haven't done any beading before so I was really looking forward to it.
Our sifu is Wendy who has heaps of beads and charms in her little workshop!

Tools needed for our little project. Pliers, beading board and of course beads and charms.

Nice isn't it? I managed to complete both my charm bracelets in about 1 1/2 hours =)

The little red heart is a Swarovski crystal which I really like.
But the blue bracelet goes really well with my outfit today =P

Unfortunately, everyone in the class made the same bracelets using beads of the same colour!

Regina, Me and Yann Mei showing of our bracelets.

We ended up walking around The Curve wearing the same bracelet =P

And people thought it was like a Friendship Band...lol

Wendy did warn us that we might bump into more gals spotting the same charm bracelets as she had many students from the Damansara area!

I really like beading as you can get really creative with the design.

And I'm a very creative person...I know I don't look like one...but I am =D

Anyways, I don't think I'll be diving head on into this new hobby in the near future.

Stocking up on materials (beads, chains, charms) is tedious and it's very immobile.

Not possible to bring the materials between Macau and KL.

If we settle down somewhere in the future, beading is definitely one craft I'll like to explore more about.

It makes really nice gifts for friends and family.

On a side note, I'm happy that the week is coming to an end.

Next week...I'll have my darling in my arms.

I've been waiting for so long.

Finally...the wait is almost over.

Time seems to go by slower evertime you wishes it would move faster doesn't it?

Our Mango Tree

This is our beloved mango tree that is very fertile at the moment.
It's been flowering like crazy!
Some of the mangoes are pretty decent in size already but the tree is still flowering.
I think we now have at least a hundred mangoes of various sizes hanging on the tree.

They are all Mum's little precious babies.
Due to some heavy rain and strong winds lately, lots of small baby mangoes ended up on the road.
Mum's pretty sad about it.
Told her it's okay...there's lots more on the tree =)

The problem is, we planted the tree outside our house.
You know the little patch of grass between 2 houses?
And out neighbours STEALS our mangoes...when they're ripe lar.
We have some horrible neighbours around here.
They are so cheapskate until they have to steal our mangoes.
It's bad enough that they used to throw bones(chicken+fish) into our porch...now they steal.

I HATE HATE HATE them....not as much as I hate some other people who I have to put up with now and then. But I still HATE them.

So much hate is radiating from me tonight.

This is my plan...if I'm leaving for Macau and the mangoes are still not ripe to be eaten by us or given away to Mum's friends(Aunties living in our area who are already eyeing the mangoes asking permission to pluck it if we're not here)

I'll POISON the mangoes!!!!

Evil right?
Mum tsk tsk me for such evil thoughts.
Saying I'm so selfish.
Wtf??
I'm doing that just so our idiot neighbour would learn their lesson.
Hopefully in the hospital *evil smile*
Don't take what's not yours.
Or DIE trying...hahaha *super evil smile*

If they ask nicely, Mum would've given them some.
She gave lots away 'cause we can't eat so many ourselves.
But noooooo...they want to be sneaky and steal the yummy mangoes.
The mangoes are damn sweet I tell you.

Now...I rather feed the mangoes to monkeys living down the road than give them any.
Just our luck to have shitty neighbours.
They have a BMW and Honda Accord in the house but want to steal mangoes.
What kind of people is that you tell me?

Talk about them...I can vomit blood.
Yeah...and they are only renting the house.
Imagine...drive BMW...but stay in a rented house.
I think there are 8 people and 2 dogs in that house.
Can't stand them.
Fucking annoying. And irritating.

Hmm...maybe I'll just pluck all the mangoes down before we leave...even if they're not ripe.
I'm not going to leave any of the mangoes for them to steal.
Then chop down the tree...hahaha...

Yup...I'm nuts.
I rather don't have any mangoes for me to eat then to let my stupid neightbours have any.
My selfishness knows no boundaries =D

The MJ Effect

I have to say, MJ untimely death is having a weird effect on me.
I watched a concert of his on tv last night and it made me cry.
I know it looks stupid when you see fans crying and fainting at the concert, but I can understand how overwhelming the feelings can be to watch MJ on stage.
I can't explain it.
It's not as if I asked my eyes to cry.
It just comes, in a wave of emotions.
Taking over...and you're in awe.

I doubt anyone can be bigger than MJ in my lifetime.
And that got me pondering again.
About life.

MJ was so successful that it made him lonely.
Not knowing who are his friends, who are his family.
I truly believe it's possible to be lonely even when you're in a crowd.
I've felt it before.
It's paralyzing.
And I think what MJ felt would've been 100 times worst than mine.

I've been yo-yoing between happiness and sadness in the past year.
One minute I'm having all the faith in the world and the next minute, crushing myself in suspicions and self pity.
It drives me nuts.
I know what is good for me, and what is eating my alive.
But I can't stop it.
I wish I could.
That's why I sympathized with MJ.
Demons in his mind consumed him.
He was so handsome...and yet, he saw imperfections.
In the end, he's probably the only one who saw beauty in his altered face.

I'm afraid I might end up being like him.
Not realizing who I really am.
Trying to be someone I'm not happy with.
Putting on a mask everyday to make everyone else happy but me.

I'm trying to find my balance.
Between expectations and reality.
When everyone around me are in the rat race, I'm the bystander.
Looking lost and envious.
But should I be envious?

That's the bloody question I can't seem to answer myself.

The grass always looks greener on the other side.
But is it really?

What's it feel like to be contented?
I know I should be.
My life ain't bad.
I didn't grow up in poverty.
I studied and got my degree.
I don't have to work.
I'm not a supermodel but I don't look bad.
I'm not as tall as I like to be but I'm glad I'm not a midget.

But something is missing.
And I don't know what it is.
I've been asking myself the same questions over and over again.

What do I want?
How can someone give me something to make me happy when I myself do not know what is it that I want?
There are things I want to do.
And yet, I can't.

I'm sad, I'm angry, I'm lost.